In life comes death

I am sadden by the news my Grandmother lost her battle with Lung Cancer yesterday.  She had had a roller coaster of events with her health over the last couple of years since my Papa and Dad passed away. She had seemed to be fairing fairly well of late. 

This is the woman that raised me as her own when my own parents were to young to do so. She was very opinionated, headstrong and hardworking. She gave all she had to ensure that her family was well taken care of and loved. She was not perfect or a fairytale kinda Grandmother but she was mine and I loved her very much. I am who I am because of the values she helped instill in me.

I regret not being able to spend more time with her in her latter years. My heart is filled with grief. I know my siblings and cousins fill the same for we all loved our Granny.

Rest in Peace Granny. Enjoy your homecoming with our loved ones that have went on ahead of us. I will see you again soon and we will rejoice in that day.

even on my day off work stress me out

Today is my day off...good thing right? Nope...Of course my assistant text me stressing out over something our boss wants her to do that she thinks is stupid. But in my boss's defense I had just discussed doing the same thing the day before and lost the arguement. So now I look uncompentant to my boss and my assistant has to do the moves anyway-- I should have just done myself yesterday.

I text her the moves I wanted to be done to accomplish what my boss wants...so the moves will get done and my assistant will get credit for doing them and I probably will be on the shit list for not having done them already. UGH!!

In my defense, what little defense I have, I had planned on doing the moves on Friday when there was no freight to be done. So now we will do the drapery moves instead:)

Now to destress and forget about it till tomorrow....nothing I can do about it now anyway. I will make sure to wear my big girl panties tomorrow, lol

October already.....

I haven't blogged in almost a month, sorry. Its not that I haven't had anything to say just haven't taken the time to say it.

Restaging went well. I broke down at my last appointment. Everything came out. I am now on a low dose antidepressant. It not only helps with the depression but quite a few of the other issue I have been suffering from. Its been a couple of weeks and I have to say I am feeling a lot better. The side effects from the new meds are worth the outcome. One of the side effects is loss of appetite:) I have already lost 10lbs, now that's a side effect I can appreciate.

Work is still very stressful.....I seem to be able to handle it better now. I don't think I will ever be back to the old me but I am going to do my best to make the new me a better me!

Enough of me for now. Enjoy your beautiful October day