Annual Review went well...the new DM left my grade as my old DM had given. But added in his thoughts and ended with now I have to prove to him I have earned it. So it was a back-handed compliment I suppose.
I did feel better after his visit this time. I was able to terminate the manager that was the weakest link in my team. That was a step in the right direction. But now I get the pleasure of working 6-7 days a week to ensure everything is getting done.
I am not sure how I feel or what I should do next. I am exhausted mentally and physically. I want to do whats best for me, my family and my career. I make really good money but is it enough?
To be honest I am so jealous of my Sister and Mom right now. They just opened their own business. Its a family business. My younger sister and niece are involved. The Woman to Blame Coffee Room. I love seeing the pics of them getting ready for the grand opening and the daily pics since. I want what they have....I hate that I always find myself jealous of my sister. I know there is stress involved owning your own business but its theirs! Working towards a successful business and not cringing every time your DM sends out an email or comes for a visit.
I need balance! I need a new goal in life. I am not happy. I feel like I am waiting...waiting for my life to start. Waiting for something real to begin.
