So sad....

I don't know where to start this time.

Shianne Sparrow took her own life yesterday. My son had been friends with this beautiful young lady most of his life. I remember them playing in the back yard when they were younger. Her family lived behind us for many years and even after our families had moved away they still remained friends.

My son is distraught over her. I don't know how to help him through this. I still am not over losing Timmy a year ago. I found myself crying over him today. Plus all the other dear loved ones that I have lost in the last few months. I am a horrible role model for him right now.

I am doing my what I can  to be here for him. To allow him to express himself  however he needs to. So far lots of hugs and video games....Honestly I think the hugs part is helping me, also. I just want him to be ok. I don't want him to feel what I have been feeling for so long now.

Cancer Sucks

Our family has had a great loss this week. One of our dear friends has lost his battle with Lung Cancer. He was more than just a friend he was family. He has been battling the beast for several years and it had gotten really bad the last couple of months. The worst part is that the person that should have been by his side helping through walked away a week or so before Christmas.....claiming she could not handle it anymore. She just left him to fend for himself in his darkest hours. He would have NEVER done that to her! Now his gone.....

My heart is aching for the tragedy of it all. I am faced with the fact that I am extremely fortunate to have the Love of My Life as my biggest advocate. When I was at my weakest he held me up and kept me going. I would have never survived without him. Cancer is the scariest and hardest thing anyone will ever have to go through and with out someone to be there to help you its unimaginable. 

Thank you Sweetie for being my everything! Danny you will be missed....I am sorry you did not have the same kind of support I had, you deserved better.