last paycheck for a while....

I picked up my last paycheck today from BBB. I was surprised to see my last check was actually more than I had expected....a positive:)

The cashier at the service desk announced over the walkie I was there and out of nowhere here came several associates to see me....I am still loved!

Of course Scarey had no desire to even say hi....almost ran me over with a ladder. That's ok I had no desire to say hi to her either. I honestly didn't think she would still be there.

I talked to one of the Managers I left behind for a few minutes. According to him Jessica has been a totally different person this last week. He asked if I had anything to do with it. All I did was be honest during my exit interview. I hope her change is real....

Now I don't want to talk about or give a shit about that store anymore. I don't want anything to do with it at all......

Exit Interview

Had my exit interview today (finally) with the Regional HR Manager for bbb. She let me talk and get out everything I needed to say. She asked a few questions to confirm information she already knew.

I learned a few things I should have already known. Before you give up go as high as you can and make as much noise as you can until someone finally listens.

So the best part of the exit interview was the fact that I got schooled on Facebook. I shouldn't put negative stuff out there about Jessica if I didn't want to burn my bridge with bbb. I actually had to think about what did I say on FB? I never put anything to major on FB....I supposedly posted something very  negative about Jessica on someone Else's page and it was seen by someone that went to Jessica about it and she then in return emailed HR and DM. I admitted to saying something but not recalling what it was...why lie, that's not me. I actually do have integrity unlike her.

I should have brought fb and scrolled through while I was on the phone with her but didn't think of it....but of course as soon as I got off the phone I thought of it. I found the comment and with my hubby's help sent it to RHR Mgr...;p

So now that door is fully closed and probably will never be opened again. What a damn shame. On to better things.....

One week after bbb

I have put in a ton of applications....hopefully I will hear from someone this week.

 I love being home with my family but I need a job asap! We really can't be with out my pay check for to long. It really sucks, I would love to be able to be home the rest of the summer. That is not realistic, I know.

I am nervous and scared....I really thought it would be easy for me to find another job. I have great credentials. I am not giving up it really has only been a week. ]]=

I will keep doing what I can around the house...I am planning a yardsale. Its a two fold idea....get rid of unwanted/unneeded stuff and make money. Hoping for a good haul:)

keep you posted

One door closes

So I interviewed with Yankee Candle for a store manager's position. It really went well. I actually had a double interview it went so well. With in a couple of days they called to see if I wanted to go on to stage 3 of the process. Taking a computerized evaluation. I felt like I did well on it. Waited, waited called them back a few days later. Found out it had been narrowed down to myself and one other candidate......woohoo

Yeah so I called today to see the status....They went with the other candidate. Cheryl (DM) said they absolutely loved me, I was more than qualified but they went with the other candidate......I wonder if was because of the amount of salary I had on my resume? Did they go with a cheaper candidate? They are keeping my resume on file.

Should I feel let down...I do.  I wanted the position because I thought it would be a challenge. Its a small store that is currently losing money...I love a challenge.

Please Lord show me my next door

So I quit

After the epic fail of a review I only had two choices....quit or become Jessica's bitch. I actually thought about it for several days. With each day she got worse..she knew she had me. She could fire me at her whim. I didn't think it could get worse and it did. I don't understand why she was so determined to get rid of me.

My hubby says it was out of jealousy, she was afraid of me and how much respect of our associates have for me. That she knew I was a better manager than her, that I was a better person than her.

All I wanted was to be a good manager, to enjoy my job and have a successful store. I would have done anything she wanted if she would have treated me with the same respect I treated her. I did not want her position, I was very happy to be Operation Manager.

I had a hard time deciding to quit. I didn't want to. I just could not keep feeling abused.

The day I put my notice in she called me into her office. She laughed. I explained to her how I felt and that I thought my review was unfair-unjust. She didn't care what I thought. She was giddy with happiness. She won.

That was 2 weeks ago. She avoided having any contact with me the first week and then was on vacation the past week. She was made to come back off of vacation yesterday to work with me my last shift. I honestly thought she would have sent me home early but no... I worked my whole shift.

I had been having second thoughts leading up to my final day. Both of the Assistant Managers had tried several times to talk me into staying. That it would not be long and Jessica would be going to the new store. I actually starting to have doubts....

15 minutes into my shift Jessica reminded me why I was quiting. I guess she just could not help herself.

Review *epic fail*

I have been at my current job for a little over 7 years now. It is longest job that I have ever held at this point. I truly saw myself retiring from this company. The last year has been a true test of my wills. And now I am at my wits end. I really don't think I can take much more.

I received my review a few days ago. I knew it wasn't going to be a great one. My boss truly doesn't like me and I don't think she is capable of giving me a compliment to save her life.....but I never expected the review I was given.
I have NEVER been put on full probation before...well until now. Last year's review was what I thought the worst review I could ever possibly get...I still received a raise (a very small one) and was told I needed to work on xyz....and I felt like shit but went out of my way to ensure that I did in fact improve on xyz. So when I was called in to the office for my review this time I was totally taken back by the stern disciplinarian I was given.

I don't even know where to start to try and explain it. I knew Jessica disliked me but to out and out lie about my performance....and best yet she has the district manager in her pocket?? wtf

I am a hard worker that goes out the way to help anyone that asks, I have high morals....yet in my review I am lazy, never get anything accomplished completely and don't help anyone ever, I have a bad attitude and my integrity was called into question. That is just the jest of it.

I walked out of that office broken and betrayed. I go home every night in pain from giving my job everything I have. I have missed out on so much of my kids lives because I have put that damn place first...... even after the cancer I found myself doing it, even though I said I would never do it again. For what....to be called a parasite by Jessica. To be made to walk on eggshells daily wondering what she was going to call me out on. Feeling like I am being set up to fail constantly. I don't know anymore.

Grrr I hate this. I hate this feeling. I hate that she has so much control over me and my life. I am not the horrible Asst. Manager she has made me out to be. I am not this person at all. Why does everyone else love me and she hates me so! I try so hard.
June 27, 2012