A Positive Blog for a change:)

I know has been forever since I posted a positive blog but here it goes...

I received a job offer from Michaels...a really good offer. So as of Monday I will be in the Manager in Training program:) I am so excited.

I won't lie I was terrified at the beginning of this process...I was cold called for this position by Angie the HR Generalist for this area. During the first interview it was meantioned that I would have to attend a training session in Dallas TX...Oh My. I was interested in everything else she said but was hung up on the idea of having to fly to Dallas for training...

I was also interviewing with Marshalls at the time and honestly thought that is where I would have ended up (their loss for dragging their feet). But I liked what Angie was saying so I went through the motions of interview process because well you never know! I am so glad I did!

My interviews went well...with every person I talked with I found myself wanting to continue the conversation. I found myself wanting to impress them! And I did! They really liked me and I really liked them...

I felt like the DM Cindy was a fair business woman that genially wants only the best for her managers. She is a firm believer of training people to get further in life! I think she will be a huge influence on my future!

I spent sometime with the Store Manager and really got a good feeling off of him. He reminded me of my favorite boss back in the day (Bob). I am older and wiser now so I will appreciate the management style more this time around. He is trying to run the store all by himself right now...I hope he doesn't have a nervous breakdown before I get through training. I will love the challenge of becoming his second. From what I have been told he is one of the best store managers in our area...

I was worried about the drive everyday. But you know that's a little thing. I will be driving to the beach everyday...how can that be a bad thing. Once I get a routine down it should be all good:) Plus we are thinking of trading in the Avenger (yes I love that car but...) to get a hybrid. I wish Dodge made a hybrid:(

Anyway I start Monday! 5 weeks in Bowie then I fly out to Dallas for a week...its like an adventure

Just don't understand

I am a firm believer in that everything happens for a reason...usually. I just don't understand why so many things have gone so wrong for us in the last several months.

*I quit my job because I could not honestly handle it anymore...I had become so lost in the depression I was terrified for myself.

Looking back now I should have taken a leave of absence--gone out to have my knee surgery. I honestly thought I would not have a problem finding another job--maybe not making as much money but still a descent enough job that I could be proud of. If I had realized I would still be out of work 2 and half months later the 3 months needed to go on Long term disability wouldn't have been such a burden. I fucked up...no way around that. I really had a hard time making the decision to quit but still felt it was right at the time--now months later....

*My Grandmother Estate was suppose to be settled on in June.

Here it is mid-September and still no clue what is truly going on. I get one thing from one person and something else from another. This is family doing this. I don't know who is being honest or telling me whatever. It is so frustrating--that settlement could be a game changer for my household. Instead of me stressing over getting a job and taking whatever I can...I could actually hold out for a job I really want. Or even think more seriously about what I want to do. Right now we don't have that luxury we are so behind on everything. We had worked so hard to get out credit cleaned up just to screw it up again.

*Every time I think I have a job....

I have filled out a ton of applications in the last several months, went on several (what seemed liked) really good interviews with what seems to be no resolve. Marshall's is still supposedly still doing a background check on me??? Michael's is going much quicker but I am scared shit less of the idea of having to go to Dallas TX to train :( DelTech didn't even give me a chance....I am so frustrated

I am in pain, I feel like a big ass loser whose whole life is seemingly falling apart....at the same time I feel so blessed because I discovered that I have a hand full of really awesome friends...a couple of which I would have never thought would have been. I am a good person, no I am not trying to convince myself...well maybe I am. Anyway I really am a good person...I have always attempted to be a good friend to others so why should it surprise me to have them return the support.

I just don't understand why things are happening the way they are right now....I am sure I will look back at some point and be like of course it was that way.....If it had not been for xyz I would not be yada yada....

Oh Lord I pray that I make it that far....

They are calling for Rain

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Color of the day today is BLUE....

I started off blogging about how depressed I am and yada yada yada....

I don't want to do that anymore.  I deleted the orginal blog and started over. Now what to write instead...

I just realized it was Wednesday...wow that's pretty sad, I just forget what day it is now.

Hopefully Hubby will be in a good mood when he gets  home. When he is in a not so good mood it puts me in a worse mood. Being in a bad mood isn't good for anyone. I want my family to be happy again.

No time like the present to find out

Democratic Convention started

Tuesday September 4, 2012

Democratic Convention started today and of course my hubby is watching. He does not consider himself a Democrat but he is. He is a political junky! He is the most knowledgeable person I have ever met when it comes to politic todayJ I love seeing how some of these people dress for the convention. There are some all dressed up in business suit and nice dresses, then there are others that are well in “patriotic” garb….boas, big hats, red white and blue what-not so funny. For some it’s a big ass party and others it’s extremely serious.

There is also a Criminal Minds marathon on today…..which he is also addicted to. He keeps flipping back and forth. It makes it a little hard to get into either show. It makes him happy and anything that will make him happy I am all for. I really enjoy watching with him no matter what it is. I like feeling apart of his enjoyment.

We were looking for some good news today….instead we got a little of the same old thing. Something has to give for our family. We need a miracle. The light at the end of the tunnel is an allusion or it the train getting ready to run us over, I am not sure but I do know it is not the light of hope.

Today seems to have been a questionable day for the whole family. Liz is now homesick again and wants to come home.  She came home for the long weekend, which was great for us but seems to have been bad for her. She’s never been on her own before, I suppose I sheltered her more than I should have. Now she is having a hard time being on her own. I know she will get through this but it is tough…..