Review *epic fail*

I have been at my current job for a little over 7 years now. It is longest job that I have ever held at this point. I truly saw myself retiring from this company. The last year has been a true test of my wills. And now I am at my wits end. I really don't think I can take much more.

I received my review a few days ago. I knew it wasn't going to be a great one. My boss truly doesn't like me and I don't think she is capable of giving me a compliment to save her life.....but I never expected the review I was given.
I have NEVER been put on full probation before...well until now. Last year's review was what I thought the worst review I could ever possibly get...I still received a raise (a very small one) and was told I needed to work on xyz....and I felt like shit but went out of my way to ensure that I did in fact improve on xyz. So when I was called in to the office for my review this time I was totally taken back by the stern disciplinarian I was given.

I don't even know where to start to try and explain it. I knew Jessica disliked me but to out and out lie about my performance....and best yet she has the district manager in her pocket?? wtf

I am a hard worker that goes out the way to help anyone that asks, I have high morals....yet in my review I am lazy, never get anything accomplished completely and don't help anyone ever, I have a bad attitude and my integrity was called into question. That is just the jest of it.

I walked out of that office broken and betrayed. I go home every night in pain from giving my job everything I have. I have missed out on so much of my kids lives because I have put that damn place first...... even after the cancer I found myself doing it, even though I said I would never do it again. For what....to be called a parasite by Jessica. To be made to walk on eggshells daily wondering what she was going to call me out on. Feeling like I am being set up to fail constantly. I don't know anymore.

Grrr I hate this. I hate this feeling. I hate that she has so much control over me and my life. I am not the horrible Asst. Manager she has made me out to be. I am not this person at all. Why does everyone else love me and she hates me so! I try so hard.
June 27, 2012