And I thought I was stress before...

OMG I feel like I am losing my grip. Ok maybe not but I am stressed. 

I am now in the position I don't know who I can rely on...every time I think I have someone I can finally put my trust in they FUCK me! So now what?

Time to regroup--turn in to that bitch my hubby has been saying I need to be. I have to take my true inner dominating self and put her to work.

So since my last post--
My Asst Mgr that I thought was finally someone I could rely on and would be there to help me get the store on the right track. Yeah well she talks a great game but isn't so great on the actually following through. I have been made to see things for what they really are lately. I am sure she is trainable. I will get her where she needs to be but for now I have to watch out for her. 

My DM came in for a follow up tour and guess what--we weren't were we needed to be. No where near. So I felt very beat up and on the defense. Second guessing myself. But he has made me really think and look around me. I need to hold my staff accountable. All of them. I need to make the plans, follow up on them and then do my best to keep them on task...if they don't get their tasks done ensure that someone (myself) does get them done. I can not allow myself to get bogged down...I am there to manage and jump in as last resort not first. I have to prove I am the MANAGER that all the higher ups say I am--Mark doesn't know yet. 

I did manage to take a 3 day weekend for my Anniversary--don't worry I had worked 10 straight days before and now am on a 14 straight day stretch now. But anywho I did have 3 days off this past weekend....poor Hubby was sick :( but I had a chance to relax rest my aching back. I had fucked it up at work AGAIN...I am horrible once the adrenaline kicks in remembering my limits. So with the help of Tramadol and heat packs I nursed my aching body. And handled the occasional call/text from work. My Asst Mgr was suppose to be in charge but it seems she forgot...or she just doesn't realize what is meant to be in charge. Lesson learned she needs more guidance. 

I get my annual review next week....I was told by my last DM it was an EE but who know what it will actually be...I am hoping to be pleasantly surprised. I want so badly to prove I am the best. I have had an extremely rough go of it so far. Second guessing myself, not making the right decision, cloudy judgment of my staff....NO more time to buck up and do what I know is right. 

Ok enough ranting for this post....