November 18, 2015

November 18, 2015

Should have been a day of Birthday celebrations for my Mother-in-Law. It was not a day of celebrations. It will never be a day of celebrations ever again for my Mother-in-Law. All she will ever think of on November 18 is the death of her mother. It is so heartbreaking. We are all sadden at the loss of Mom-mom Florence but none as much as my Mother-in-Law.

Maxine's whole world has been taking care of her mother since the death of her father 16 year ago. My Parent-in-Laws gave up their home to move in with Mom-mom Florence so that she would be more comfortable. So that she would not have had to be up-heaved after the loss of her husband. My Mother-in-Law gave up everything to be there for her mother. I don't know many people that would have done that. Everything she did she did with the thought of Mom-mom and not herself or her husband. She fixed dinners that were geared around what Mom-mom wanted. They watch tv programs that Mom-mom wanted. They made plans around what was best for Mom-mom never themselves for 16 years.

We all new Mom-mom was getting worse but for 16 years she always seemed to rebounded when we thought she would not make it much longer. She has been in and out of the hospital several times over the last few months. We could see she was getting weaker. She was deteriorating in front of our eyes. She was sleeping more and not as talkative. She was worn out from fighting.

For me it was getting hard to see her...I know that sounds heartless. I am not trying to be heartless but I knew she was dying and I was having a hard time dealing with it. I do not deal with death very well.


My hubby and kids are taking it as well as they can. We have all had our moments of breakdowns and tears. I took the day off from work to be with them, to give them support as they need it. My daughter has been stressed out over her final year of college and work and everything else going on in her life. She did not get to say good bye or visit with her Great Mom-mom before she passed away...she is taking it very hard.

I am most concerned with my Mother-in-Law. I can not imagine the emotional pain she is in right now.

Now for the planning of the final good-byes.