Dating in 2018

Dating is no where the same as it was when I was in my 20s.

Thanks to POF and Match.com I have met some interesting men. I have chatted with a few that didn't make it to the dating stage and a small handful that did. None of the ones from POF have worked out sadly. Honestly they have all been very similar. Each one I had hopes of being someone I could enjoy dating. Ironically enough dating to these men meant Netflix and chill....and I don't mean sex. Or at least satisfying sex. Even so I found myself getting caught up wanting to make it work. Why do I do this?? None of them were right. I am always thinking what if...I need to stop doing this.With each one I have gotten better.

Now I've met a man from Match.com. He isn't like the other guys. He is younger. He is Pagan and has Pitties. He looks at me different than anyone else has. I feel different when I am with him. He refuels me. So now I am doing my best to not act stupid and see what happens.

One Step at a time.....not getting a head of ourselves. I swore I wasn't going to get my horse ahead of the cart with him and then the fuck if I know what happened. UGH. I am not going to do the what if thing..I need to keep saying this to myself.

I swear I have way to much time on my hands. Im ready to get my life started.... the next chapter of my life...