I can't seem to shake this horrible feeling. I've now managed to upset my husband and he is not talking to me. That really does not help with my bouts of depression I am suffering through. Its my own fault. He has his own demons he is fighting and I should have respected that. I love my husband very very much but there are times when we just don't see eye to eye on things. In his defense he really feels he is right and that he gives in to me and I feel the same towards him....so if we are both doing that how do we keep butting heads and hurting each others feelings?? He is the only person that matters to me (and my kids) and I can't make him happy with the person I am right now.
I don't want to be this person anymore. I want to go back to being that person that did not give a shit about what anyone thought of me. I want to go back to being that strong independent woman I once was. I hate the current me!! I've always been stressed at different levels but to this point--I can barely function right now.
I feel like I am constantly on eggshells....who am I going to disappoint next. Saying the wrong thing to the wrong person or doing the wrong thing at the wrong time??? I have no confidence in myself right now. I feel...broken
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