Aug 28 2012

So we haven't completely sunk the ship yet, hubby says we can stay a float probably another week.

I have my second interview with Marshalls tomorrow finally. I had a first interview with Michaels yesterday...it a little further to drive but the opportunity of advancement faster (question is do I want advancement--or do I want a job for now and keep looking for the read deal, the dream job).

Both my hubby and I have applied for a sweet job at the local college as Manager of the bookstore. I am not sure how I feel on that. So far every time we have both went after the same job I have come away with the job...but I really think he would be great at it and it would make him so much happier than he is right now. He really needs a change.

I know that perfect job is out there crying for me....why can't I find it. I really thought the Ashley job was it...sigh

I am extremely stressed this morning. I had my phone interview with unemployment. It seemed to go ok but now he has to contact BBB for their rebut. He said depending on what information he gets from that conversation he may have another interview with me or he may make his decision. It could be another week before I will know either way. I feel like shit right this moment just thinking about what they will say--call me a liar. I put way to much into that damn place and allowed them to take way so much of me....my soul.

I have to remember what I have been through and where I want to go from here. I have to close the door on that chapter of my life. I can not dwell on it. It will eat me alive.