I hate days like today. I feel absolutely useless. Even though I have all these medicines to take I still feel like absolute hell. The worst I feel more in my head I get. I have so much to be thankful for but on days like this it's hard to think of any of them.
I just want to jump down my rabbit hole and never come out again. I feel alone and forgotten sometimes. I know there are those that would be at my door in a heartbeat if I just let them but I hate being that burden. I'm so used to always being the one that took care of others. I hate being this person now. I feel like I have nothing to offer the world. So frustrated. So overwhelmed.
My head keeps me in a fog. I have a hard time finding joy in anything on days like today. I find myself crying for no reason. I know I have friends that would say "why don't you just message me" .. I just don't know. I don't want to put my burdens that I barely understand on someone else.
I feel so useless. So stressed. So alone. I'm tired of being in pain. I'm tired of feeling like this. So I take another pill to chase the pain away but it doesn't work. I want to be normal again. I feel like I've missed so much. All I want to do is climb down my rabbit hole.
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